mixture of everything...

well, kalau baca tajok post ni rasanya dah dapat tahu la apa maksudnya.... basicly, it is a mixture of everything and this is how i feel right now....

banyak yang terjadi dalam hidup ini pada tahun 2010 ini dan segalanya hanya membuat diriku sorg yang lebih berhati-hati dan sorg yang lebih matang. satu per satu peristiwa baik yang manis, pahit, masin, masam, tawar atau pedas dan semua itu aku ambil dan telan dengan positif... since januari 2010 sampai la ke hari ini 31 mei 2010, semua ini telah ku lalui dan syukur kepada Ilahi sebab aku masih mampu untuk melangkah dengan tabahnya, aku masih kuat dan masih berlari menuju ke garisan penamat walaupun perjalanan masih jauh dan tak nampak pun bayang-bayang garisan penamat itu....

well bulan januari, bulan pembukaan untuk tahun yang baru kiranya sudah diri ini melalui yang manis, pahit, masam, masin, tawar dan pedas... well, i know what happened that is consider sweet or sour... hehehhehe... it is really a tough month for me i guess but i know that i am strong and i have survive for 22 years in this world and takkan la tak boleh survive for the coming days, weeks, month and years.... i know oi can cause i have Him who always strengthen me...

well, the coming month pun sama juga, still going through the same thing.......

the toughest month for me is during March, April and May... 3 bulan ini sememangnya sgt mencabar bagi diri ini dan macam macam berlaku till at one point i memberontak dalam diri ini and i nearly give up all my dreams but as i think of it, it will be a waste of talent and time if i give up so fast. so i go on this journey.....

well, all above is so randomly arrange and tak narrow it down specific things.... it's all about myself, my study, friends, family and the society.... the things here is on how we think and how we overcome it all. if we stay positive in every circumstances, i'm sure that everything will be okay...

saying it is easy, and reading this is also easy, but this is how i overcome things and challenges in my life. well, i lost my late father since i was 10 years old and have been making my own decision since then of course with guidance of my mum and family. it is not easy growing up, lots of challanges too at home, school and the society. well, tak yah la nak sebut byk. but all this thing tak buat aku putus asa....

tetiba, teringat bout something, a friend of mine said that i'm super confident and ask me why and how can i be so confident in everything i do. it is easy for me. if i have no motivation and no confidence in things that i do, i dont think people outside will give me the motivation and confidence. yes, we need support from others but if ourself tak ada motivation and confidence, for sure we cannot do it. some pula kata i ni sombong and mr know it all, well for me, it is part of the skills to survive alone in this community.... klu tak ada skills ni, haduuhhh..!! i dont know la how i can survive....

well, skrg ni, jam menunjukkan 955pm and deep inside of me rasa kecewa, rasa gembira, rasa sedih, rasa blur and too many things in mind and i'm so worry about so many things.... but i still put on a smile on my face cause i know He Who created me will sure open ways to all my problems and worry...

well, memang penipu la namanya kalau ita tak pernah risau kan... hehhehehe... btw, lama dah tak tulis taip dan meluahkan isi hati dalam blog ini (pernah ka?) hahhahahha.... this will be my first non lyrics ways to express myself....

hahahhahaha....

and this is an unplanned writting and i type je apa yg ada dan terlintas dalam fikiran ini.... so it's so random and tak tersusun....

p/s: sorry kalau ada typo k... spelling prob ka, cause malas nak check ni... i guess i mcm ada repeat myself a few time.... hehehheheh

-signing off for now....

Malcolm

Chinese + English = Chinglish

You might like it. This is hilarious.....even an Englishman could not construct
sentences using numeric, which is exclusive only to Malaysians and
Singaporeans.

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.
Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what
he came up with.....

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic
and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and
threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took
a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away.

10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 -eleven. Next day I called my
boss and told him I was 6 . He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work.
He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice
2 him but I don't know what he 1 . _

Matthew 6:34

i received this email few days ago and after i read it, i feel blessed and i decide to post it to bless other people around me....
enjoy reading...

John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I would be twins!'


He was a natural motivator.


If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.



Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, 'I don't get it!'



'You can't be a positive person all of the time.

How do you do it?'



He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or...you can choose to be in a bad mood


I choose to be in a good mood.'


Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.



Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or...I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.


'Yeah, right, it's not that easy,' I protested.


'Yes, it is,' he said. 'Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood.


You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life.'


I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.


Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.



After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back.



I saw him about six months after the accident.


When I asked him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be twins...Wanna see my scars?'



I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.



'The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter,' he replied. 'Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die. I chose to live.'


'Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?' I asked.


He continued, '...the paramedics were great.



They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action.'



'What did you do?' I asked.


'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John. 'She asked if I was allergic to anything 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity''



Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead.'


He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude....I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.


Attitude, after all, is everything.


Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34.

I Love You

Everybody know what it mean

Everyone used this word.

No matter how old,

How young you are

You will know.

Everybody sing this song with me,

Everybody scream it out aloud….

Say it “I love you”,

Prove it “I love you”,

Make me believe that “I love you”

So Don’t just say it I I I, Love Love Love You..

Please don’t use this word,

When you don’t feel it in you heart.

Cause someone will be hurt,

In the end of the day,

“You will see”

Everybody sing this song with me,

Everybody scream it out aloud….

Say it “I love you”,

Prove it “I love you”,

Make me believe that “I love you”

So Don’t just say it I I I, Love Love Love You..

Say it “I love you”,

Prove it “I love you”,

Make me believe that “I love you”

So Don’t just say it I Love You...

Realize

Since you came into my life,

I want nothing more than you

And now I realize,

That I fall for you,

since the first time you look into my eyes…

How can I live without you.

There nothing more I want.

Come closer to my arms,

Wanna hold you,

Till the end of the world, end of my breath…

I realize, baby

I miss you.

I realize, baby

I love you.

I realize, baby

I need you.

I realize, baby

I’m yours..

Your Smile

Walking in the train

Standing by the corner,

Nothing much to do,

Only me and the music.

Then you look at me

I realize it.

Pretending not to and acting cool.

You make feel uncomfortable,

Cause your smile,

It is your smile….

You color up the grey day,

With rainbows and sunshine.

You melt the cold freeze heart

You stole a heart from me,

With just a smile,

It is your smile,

It is your smile….

You walk to me

And talk to me.

We exchange our number

it is where this song begins.

Then you look at me

I realize it.

Pretending not to and acting cool.

You make felt uncomfortable,

Cause your smile,

It is your smile….

You color up the grey day,

With rainbows and sunshine.

You melt the cold freeze heart

You stole a heart from me.

You come into my life,

You gave me hopes and dreams,

You make my heart goes dap dap dip dip dup,

With your smile,

It’s your smile…

It’s your smile..